Thursday, April 3, 2008



I interrupt this trip down memory (nightmare lane) for a late breaking trigger!!!!!!!

I hate these things I call triggers!!!!!!!

I wish I didn't have them! BUT they always seem to hit me when CS is late!


And so as you may have  guessed it's late... again!!!!  Turns out the three of them went to Paris!!! Must be nice to use your kids , from your first marriage, their money for trips with your new family!

last night he calls, they are back! Well he makes it sound like he is back from his business trip! Yeah business my A$$ try monkey business!

I ask him if he sent CS he says "yeah just this morning!" asked him if he was lying again and if it would be another 2 weeks before it was really sent! he said NO he sent it!

Then I hear their kid in the back ground so she and the kid are back too! So he didn't really go away on business! he went to Paris with her!

I don't get why he feels like still after 7 yrs he has to lie to me!


So his lies and no CS always make me think of the bad times!

Like when he was first leaving me, how I asked him why!

You know what he told me???

Because she had been alone for 15 yrs and he felt sorry for her!!!!!!!!!



maybe there was a reason she has been alone that long!


What about me and your kids won't you feel sorry for us and when leave us! and leave us without a ATM card to buy milk and bread!!!!!!


he didn't say a word he just looked like a deer caught in the head lights!


He hasearned himself a new nick name gone are the days of BUTTHEAD  ... or BH... he has now been crowned king of RAT BASTARD (RB).


Now back to your regular post!!!!