I wanted to separate from David since Brittany was 4 years old (her 5th b-day) . Here it was, she was about to turn 10, I felt trapped with 4 children, ages 9 to 1 yr old. I felt it wasn't fair to leave the marriage because Bethany wouldn't grow up living with her father, I was just going through the motions of daily life, hoping it would get better, it never did. Him cheating really was the best thing that ever happened to me. I was able to get my life back. And thank goodness I held out as long as I did, or else I would not of had Bethany. My life is hard, but I am happier than I've been in the last 12 years.