Tuesday, March 25, 2008

Dec 1989-march 1990

After the miscarriage in Sept the Dr told me to wait at least 4 months to try again! So we did... In DEC we became pregnant again!

David was happy!

I was scared to death that I would lose this baby too! So I was very careful and followed "the book" to a T...

I had every test that a new mom should have...

The AFP test came back positive as if there was something wrong with my baby! David wasn't there for that!

and the Dr ( no bedside manners) told me my options, AS IF!!!! David wasn't there for that!

I was very careful to take my viatim everyday even drink milk even though I hated the stuff!

I heard the baby's heartbeat for the first time... alone!

David's dad was still pretty much in the picture and getting on my nerves even more! He had David out flying every weekend leaving me at home!

Well it was time to set up an appointment for the ultra sound! and I really wanted David to be there, as I thought he wanted to be there too. So one night while David's dad was at our place I told David you can go flying any day in March EXCEPT MARCH 15th  his dad said WHY? And I told them! Well his dad pretty much in so many words told me to shut up! As if to say I should be seen and not heard!

Well come march 15 where was David??? Not there for me or our baby, where was he you ask? Well you all know the answer to that! where else ?  With his Dad... flying!


So since I didn't drive I had to cancel the appointment...

I had enough! I packed and called my sister... She came and got me and my stuff!! I left...

He got home, came home to an empty home,  and called my mom, where else would I be? I had no friends up here, I had no family close by! So he knew! He called! We talked, I told him that I told him he could go flying any time in march any day BUT the 15th!

I told him just to leave me alone for a while! He cried again and said "well I guess I will never see my baby!"

I went back a week later!!!!

1 comment:

momiscool2 said...

oh how sad - I'm sorry he wasn't there for you!